Oh, you poor thing, my ex has 3 "projects" at this moment. Things are different nowadays and you're not prepared to love some1 working on this "industry". Try talking with a Psychiatrist. If you don't want to give up on the ideea, tell her how you feel and talk about both of your needs. See where it goes, but, I strongly suggest you to don't make the same mistake I did. If you decide to walk this way, I welcome you to my world, this will be really intensive I hope you can handle that. Accept her as it is and don't try to change her, convincing her to work as a cam model (search: cam model trainers) may help, there's plenty money in there too. Be ready for the break-up, because that will surely happen. When that happens please be smart and quit smoking, coffee and don't touch alcohol. Meditation, psychology books (or videos https://www.youtube.com/user/ActualizedOrg) and perhaps going to gym may help. I hope that you won't end like me a "no-relationship type". Suicide is the easy way out, don't be a faggot to use this as a weapon. This will be my last message on this form, take care and goodbye. Ps: if she likes to dominate, you're literally fucked, pay attention to that!